A letter from November 13th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, You are crying yourself to sleep in your little room. You feel you often give too much to relationships, you invest so much more than you get. It doesn't feel great. It's been a little while since things with Josh ended and the second lockdown began, they almost happened at the same time. You feel alone. You miss lying down and feeling his touch, feeling him hold you and keep you warm. You feel sad. Nothing ever lasts long with you, after a month you kinda call it quits, but know that that's ok and your first priority should always be you. You're getting cabin fever from the Lockdown and not interacting with many people other than your housemates, but you see Sidney on Monday. Sidney is a friend, but sometimes you think he could become more. He is kind. Know that love conquers all, do everything you do with love and never forget its strength. Also never forget your worth 🌞 I wonder what live you are now living on your 25th Birthday. Are you celebrating with friends, with family or are you celebrating alone? Do you still have housemates, if the answer is yes, maybe consider trying out living alone for a while too. Oh and buy a donut! I dont know which friends you still speak with but check up on the old souls and see if they're still good. Maybe you can even meet some of them. Where do you even live now? Hopefully not still in Brighton (fingers crossed) I hope you are happy because at least for me, at the moment, it's hard to find a reason to smile. Lots of love Your younger self