A letter from November 11th, 2020

Dear future me, Hi! First thing, I hope you’re still here, I hope you’re still fighting, keeping strong and working on your goals of being a positive contribution. You’ve put yourself through a lot in the past, always putting others first even if it put you to the lowest place you’d be able to be. I can’t wait to see what you’re able to achieve. I’m finally exited for the future. Never let yourself be in the same position that you’ve put yourself in the past again, where your happiness was dependant on someone elses. I can’t wait to see and meet my own little family, whether it’s with the person I want it to be ( CA ) or someone else, maybe I have my own family when you receive your letter. Hug your loved ones a little harder, tomorrow is never promised, and love can’t be free, so appreciate the free things. These past few years have been the hardest of my life, and I can imagine they won’t get any easier but I also know that if we keep pushing ourselves the way we need to, the way we want to, we will eventually get there in the end. Good things come to those who wait, and you definitely deserve the best from what we’ve been through and the places we’ve put ourself. Love yourself, and don’t depend on someone else too much. You’re amazing, don’t let anyone take away your specialty, you are you, and you are different. You’re one of a kind. I hope you’re still friends with Charlie, if not ring her right now! Go see her, see what she’s doing, meet her. Maybe you’re even in America, living your dream😍 hopefully. If not I guess there’s always something else out there for us. Also, never forget the love you ( me ), ( us ) had for charlie ashurst. That boy saved your life, and you wouldn’t be here without him. Maybe you’re still with him, maybe you aren’t, but once you love someone you can never unlove them. No matter what’s been thrown at you, fight on, be strong and always find yourself again, your a good person at heart and you mean well. Stay positive, and always be yourself, shes the best❤️