A letter from November 7th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are a doctor. I hope you are the doctor you wished to be as an m1 or if you changed your mind i hope you chose a residency you can be proud of. I hope you are in residency actually because at this point you are feeling very unconfident. I hope things in your personal life are okay. Just to remind you on where I am now, I have just ended my engagement with Juana and it hurt like a b****. I really don't know how the future is going to go, whether you will be with her or with someone else or with no one at all. That's the thing that scares me the most, the not knowing. Actually the not knowing of anything really, of what you want of who you want of who you are. But enough about past self, how are you? I hope you don't regret making this email because maybe when you are reading this now you will be disappointed in yourself that you haven't gotten anywhere. I don't know. I hope you have improved yourself, gotten fit, improved your habits whether it's sleeping or studying or just doing anything that improves you. At the moment you are trying to stay up to study for mmg (immunology) and you are procrastinating but this is important to write. I will send a follow up email when I'm less busy because honestly I don't know what to write right now. There's so much potential for writing anything that I just need time to think of what to write. Good luck I hope you are okay because right now not everything is great.