A letter from November 5th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It was his birthday yesterday, you gave him a cake as gift. You were able to talk to him for a bit to greet him and then you got emotional and cried. I still hoped he wasn't able to notice it because of the lag. I still miss him. I told this other guy about it and everything went ****. Everything he told me was kinda true. I may or we may really be just using one another. Or maybe I'm still on denial that's why I can't say that it is definitely true. He makes me happy, big time. That I know is true. But he has someone else in his heart. His heart isn't only for me, which sucks. I'm the other girl in his story. I makes me feel so sad. And I am here also thinking about my ex. Everything sucks right. I hope by now you are doing great and in a healthy relationship. Have a great life. Love yourself okay?