A letter from November 4th, 2020

Dear FutureDI, IF YOUR READING THIS YOU BETTER HAVE MADE IT ON GOD! i'm gona be shocked if your still alive at this point and reading this, not thinking about ***** of yourself or your fam every single night stoopid. You better be driving a Range Rover by now. You better have gotten your degree and be a **** *** healthy *** lawyer by now. I hope you've been taking care of the family and maybe even engaged or married at this point if your not having too much fun on your grind like always! your 19 btw Right now you should be sipping your own iced caramel frappachino that you made yourself in your brand new beautiful home, that you've created on your own. i'm so proud of you if you've made it, only if you've made it. you better be much closer to Allah and thank him everyday for what he's given you and be so thankful all your family members are still alive. i hope you've finally found your dream man, the lightskin one, the one with the smile and he treats u real good and makes your family so proud! You MUST be financially free right now you must be able to afford anything and everything. Im so happy to see you shining right now. i hope you've still got no fake friends and your glowing on all of them. you are the rock that keeps the family going, you better have made them all proud! Especially MOM and DAD, my favs in the world - making them proud is and was the goal. You better have bought them a house or in the process of doing so. I hope you've made them so so proud. I also hope your not smoking weed still. Bad Habit. You better have 100k followers on instagram right now. itty bitty litty model-equse you better have got it over these past 6 years! Just know your amazing if youve accomplished over half on this list Right now i feel alone, stressed, drowning and dreaming, sleep walking whilst im awake. Everything feels like a dream right now. But im gona get through it. I am doing this for myself and for my family and i hope i make it. i love me so much, i love you. See you in 5 years Di, ill see u on the other side Wednesday the 4th of November, 2020. x