A letter from November 4th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, yesterday i got an e-mail in my inbox. it was the one i wrote a year ago to my future me, the me who was lying in bed unbelievably sad and didn't really want to get out of bed. yeah. because things didn't go as i hoped they would, but that happened to almost everyone this year. i didn't even read the letter i wrote last year. just briefly looked through it. i knew it was full of hopes and dreams for this year that simply didn't happen. because sometimes there can be certain circumstances that nobody really thinks could happen and then they actually happen and everything goes to **** and you're ill and you get fired and you can't really see your friends for months and people change and people come and go and you come and go as well and then your cat that you love so much suddenly dies and you're grieving and it hurts and you cry and want the world to end right now so you don't have to deal with stuff like that or stuff in general anymore. but you'll live. even if you don't want to sometimes. you'll live and you'll get through it even though it seems impossible. you'll manage somehow. you'll resiient and strong and capable. you are. it's just the way it is. you'll manage and you're gonna find out with a surprise that you actually quite enjoyed the process and you wouldn't have it any other way. except for the cats dying. that's too cruel. so, take it one day at a time. that's basically the best advice ever given and best advice you can take these days. one day at a time. things are what they are. sometimes hard to accept, but it's just how it is. do what you can do. be grateful for every little thing. be kind to yourself, and also be nice to your co-workers, because sometimes they are the only people you have. love. i'm not gonna plan anything too far ahead. maybe anything ever. i just really do hope that we went to Finland by now and it was everything we ever wished for, and maybe some other places as well, and that we found some friends along the way and kissed some cute people and that Dream Sweet in Sea Major makes us feel the same way it does now and it did last year because it's the best musical piece ever done and that we found someone who understands it and we can talk to them about it (if so, than i guess we can talk to that person about anything because they just understand our very soul). oh, and cats. some cool and cute and lovely cats because they're good for the soul and make this world a happier, more bearable place. cut your hair the way you want even if it's messy and ugly. hair will grow again soon enough. cats won't. so. yeah. just. hang in there. we're not done here yet. there are many things waiting for us and many things we have to do. bye now. keep going. yours truly, me from November 4th, 2020