A letter from November 4th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey you...i hope you still alive and reading this.How was your life?... Um i just want to say I'm sorry that i didn't give you enough time to heal, I'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurt but you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry abt you, I'm sorry that you always cried every night before you sleep without any reason and nobody understand you,You always pretend that everything is fine and nothing has happened,you always give your happiness to other even you was very sad...you always there when people need you but when you need someone to hear you there's no one... and I am so sorry that i always judged your body and did not love you ,Even though you really deserved to be loved.I'm so sorry for everything... You have gone through difficult times alone and now I hope you are not the old me, I really want to see you happy with your flaws, you are beautiful, smart, and independent ...i want you to be strong,You deserve happiness,you rlly does.Please don't hate anyone who had hurt you, don't stop to be being nice person,and i hope you still love your family and your friends...i know you do ,i know you really love them even though they hurt you.And hey You have to accept a man who likes you, don't let the past destroy you, not all men are the same, okay? Look for the one who really deserves you.Do you still want to be a doctor? I hope so, you have to reach out ,don't you want to make your parents proud?. Don't let anyone bring you down okay...you more than good enough, don't change yourself for anyone.You know what? I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!. And always remember i love you Myself :)