A letter from November 3rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hi, i kinda don't know what to write, you would probably think that this is kinda stupid. I am listening to "treat like somebody" remember? "u gotta be perfect, just guve me a purpose to love" lol. Anyways, how are u? are u really okay? are u still dealing with depression? is "dad problem" still a problem? i don't know why i am asking this but ... i don't know. Who know whta will happen in this 1826 days. Are u still obsessed with vinnie and draco malfoy (probably yes , who can't) did u finish the originals? i just wanna say that i love u, i hope that u find really someone, something a little bit difficult. I am listening to "unsteady" right now, i don't wanna cry honestly but a tear is falling down RIGHT NOW. Please tell me thta u are happy because here things are getting just a little better but i don't know if this "getting better" is going to last long. God i love you so much. i HOPE U FIND YOURSELF cuz is whta u really need , i don't know if i should send this to a "five year old me" but it's probably what i am going to do. Has the english teacher gave an A ? Have you fell in love, or not yet?. I know u are strong u just have to keep going like this. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH , PLEASE DON'T HURT YOURSELF ANYMORE, i know it's hard but keep your head up , eventually someone will notice you, he is not worth it anymore. Are u still crying every night yourself asleep? i hope no because it's time to stop that, remember "the eyes that say the silent tears are those thta will see happiness" idk where i got this but whatever, try to be happy i know it's hard sometimes (ruel). idk what else to write ohh yeah !! are u still friend with Aj and Adc and Noah omggg pls tell me yes cuz idk what i would o if u say no now. Aj, has he found a freaking girlfriend yet or still hopeless? pls don't tell me he is dead or something. LISTEN TO "INVISIBLE" right now . remember all the **** that u've been thru. wow . one day i will wake up with a smile on my face, one day i am gonna be finally fine, but for now we just stay where we are. OMG do u remember that song "let her go" by The Kid Laroi omggg , im gonna cry. Wow 5 years guess i gotta wait huh. Are u still thinking to go to Miami University? Have u decided what job do u wanna do? But most importantly ARE U HAPPY? don't ever let yourself down again, not the way that u have been doing in this year, that was the worst thing u could ever do, smile a little more , just a little , please do it for me , do it for the young version of u that have been struggling fo months (idk if i should say years) i love you so much, im so scared rn to sent this e-mail but i guess i've got to, i promised. DON'T EVER FORGET THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, PLEASE FIND THE TRUE HAPPINESS, THAT HAPPINESS THAT U HAVE BEEN DESERVING FOR TOO LONG . bye-