A letter from October 30th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, For starters i have a few questions, Are you still here or you dead? Is coronavirus still here? How’s school? Did you pass? Are you still friends with everyone? Do you still play football? How’s your relationship with your parents? Are you still on good terms? How about with your sisters? Are you still close? And Gaby are you guys still best friends? Are you still in a relationship with Gabriel? Is he still the love of your life? Did the dodgers win this year? Are you okay? Do you still get those ideas? Do you still cut? Are you happy now? (ofc you always are) Do you like how you look? (like a badass yes you do) Do you cry a lot? Anyways, i don’t know yet to what future me i’m gonna send this letter to but it’s crazy to think that maybe i’m gonna be engaged or famous or maybe i’ll still just be me. But you know what, if i can make it t’ill then, that’s good. I’m proud of you. Today, you thought about ******* yourself. You didn’t do it obviously, thank god gabriel was there cause if it wasn’t for him or your sister i think you would have done it but tbh idk. I hope you’re still with him because he makes you happy, but if not that’s okay too. Today, you were sad but i hope you’re happy now. I really wish that by the time i receive this covid will be gone. Also, i forgot but are you close with your little sister, you know, the one you never even wanted. Where do you work, cause i work at Canadian tire. I think i’m gonna get fired tho haha. Are the girls still close to you? Because right now you all are thinking about y’all’s future together and i really hope that that’s gonna work out for y’all. Or maybe i’m just naive by saying that. I hope you have big dreams and i hope you travel a lot cause you always wanted that in your life. Dream big. lol that’s ******* cheesy. How’s Ruby baby? Is she still with you? What do you want to do for a living cause idk and maybe by the time you read this you ll already be doing it. Anyways, don’t spend money on food, spend it on vodka. Party lots and have *** lots too. Love other people and yourself or at least try. Stand up for minorities and for what’s right. I really hope you are still gonna be here to be able to read this letter. And remember that whatever happens alcohol can solve lots of problems. haha jk. just don’t give up if you made it this far. And before i forget don’t forget the suicide joke, haha how ironic. 15 year old 2020 xx