A letter from October 28th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Happy 18th birthday! You've grown so much that you are now an adult. People might say "you are no longer a kid, you have finished childhood", but they are wrong. You will always be mom's and dad's kid. You will always be in childhood, even after *****. Responsibilities are going to rush into you, and you will have to hold tight. Right now I have no idea what pain you have gone through, I mean I do but not the ones that I'll have to face in the future. I hope you are still very good at controlling your emotions. If you are getting weak, listen... You have already gone through so much, and you made it through for a reason. You haven't finished, so keep going. Keep your head up sis, your crown is falling. How is Sadichhya? Do you meet her a lot? Have you guys gone to amusement parks together yet? Are you two going to move in? Did you get famous/popular? What sports do you play? Did you ever get bullied? If yes, when did it happen? Just to let you know, today Ameire burned his finger from the hot glue ***. It's really soar. Also I just got to do a little of the "Hogwarts Test". Oh yeah we also had our party... I have the pictures!! Hari was saying that Jadiel and Ameire called him a b*tch. I don't know what to say. Here is a list of the bad things that (are) happened/happening today: 1) I have a headache, and feel like throwing up. 2) I feel horrible for no reason at all. 3) I am worried about who will become president... either Trump or Biden. I'm hoping Biden does. 4) It's more of a rainy and dark day, so it's making everything boring. 5) I hate to know the fact that hajurba (grandpa) isn't alive anymore. Even though he passed away years ago, I still kinda can't accept the fact. 6) 1st marking period ended and we had to leave Mr. Carpenter. 7) I'm feeling like as if I'm out of energy. 8) I have a feeling that no one cares about me really. I don't really care about what people think of me, but today is just bad. 9) I didn't eat pizza at lunch today because it looked weird. 10) Ameire is appearing as if he is evil. He's not mean to me or anything but still... 11) I feel forgotten. 12) I miss 2019. 13) Everyone is underestimating me. 14) I am getting anxiety. 15) I didn't get a chance to meet Sadichhya yet. ETC. Do you know what you are going to become, yes or no? Let me guess, you are going to be a dancer, singer, actress, and/or surgeon... Well right now I don't know if I am right but anyways what are you going to become? Why do you want to become that? By the way Amisha is in my room right now, and she is wearing my blue socks. Remember those ones with the white blobs on them and I didn't like wearing them because the inside was itchy? Yes, and obviously she is watching "her abcs". But I still love her. Again I'll repeat, keep your head up! Keep going Divya and prove everyone that you can do almost anything because you are hardworking. I am having this weird feeling inside my body because I am thinking about ending this letter. Well before I end this let's compare some things: Tiktok- 645 followers Instagram- 73 followers Snapscore- 11,982 Youtube- 1 subscriber Twitter- 2 followers Now goodbye... you probably have more letters coming in the future. Bye, I hope you have a great birthday!! I'm having a hard time trying to end this... again last time, GOODBYE!!!! Love 12 year old you, Divya <3