A letter from October 28th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey um idk really know what to say to you but you're 18 that's super cool what does it feel like to finally be an adult I bet dad doesn't treat you like an adult still tho I bet he still tells you how fat you are and how bad you are at school and I bet he's still being brainwashed by Fernanda and is doing everything that she tells him to do right and still treating her kids like they are superior to you and Chris and Ray-man is 8 omg I bet she is doing great in second grade if she even is in second-grade I'm not really sure how this app works but whatever I hope you and autumn are still together and going strong because i truly love her sooooooo much and i hope you love her more than i do and i hope charlotte is still your best friend and i hope you're well i hope you are still clean from self-harm i hope you aren't doing any drugs because we both know that's not gonna end well for you and you need to not be like dad because we both know how that ended and it wasnt good we are gonna be better than him right and i hope you are still chasing our dream of being an artist or singer and i hope we have gotten our top surgery unless you have chossen to stay with female and i hope you are still nonbinary cause that would mean that dad and fernanda are wrong and it wasnt a faze and that really is our indentity and i hope you are still openly lgbtq+ just like you are now and i hope we still hang out with jaylie and i hope you still love lil peep, yungblud,and lil darkie and i hope you still love all the stuff we love now like the color black and art and music and among us and stuff like that i hope you finally lost the weight you wanted to and have your dream body and you are confident in your own skin and i hope that your anxiety,adhd,and depression have gotten better and you have meds for the depression but not the adhd because adhd meds make you heartless and we dont want to be like that and i hope dad has stopped being so transphobic and homophobic and has stopped using the excuse "i have *** friends" but if he still is i hope you have gotten away from the toxicisity of those people who are like that and have founnd your true family the people who will support you no matter what choices you make or how you choose to present yourself -from 13 year old CJ