26/10/2020

dear 12 year old Mariam, today its the 26th of October 2020 and I have to say that its been such a rough year. I haven't been able to do anything: hanging out with friends, having sleepovers and all the fun stuff you could possibly want to do. I hope mom has changed her mind because I really want to live the best time of my life and I cant do that if she keeps saying NO S..M..H anyways here's the things that has happened so far just in case you don't remember: coronavirus, quarantine for 6 months, had a good start for the first day back in high school!!, best birthday sleepover party EVERRR lmao i hope you dug up the time capsule with annabel, ruby, Sofie, catherine and keeva, sneaking out of the house with annabel to ealing...whoops teehee and one thing that made me most happy was him, i hope you remember his name..Aubrey? yeah HIM. when you and him became friends FINALLY and havent argued since April. i really hope your not strangers with him and that you guys still talk, hes one of the reasons why im so happy other than the fact that he liked this one other girl. Uma told me abt her and i just was heartbroken?? UGH BOYS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. one second im mad at him for LITERALLY no reason AT ALL. hes a really nice boy please keep that in mind; if something did happen though..you still liked him dont forget that but hes not my main cause right now. i wonder so much about the future and not whats happening now, thats definitely something i need to work on. i hope your happy and not faking a smile, i hope that things really have changed in a good way. treat your children right, treat the people around you right..you never know what could happen *just like that*. anyways Mariam, i guess this is the end...i hope your still alive, keep pushing and this may not sound like something i would say but please don't give up on yourself, everyone makes mistakes. have a great day sis I LOVE YOU <3