A letter from October 26th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I’m sitting here in my bed thinking about where I should be in 5 years. I hope I graduated from nursing school and am working as an RN. I hope I’m married to my best friend, with a kid and another on the way. I hope to be living in Israel or being there a lot. I hope to be happy and healthy. But most importantly I hope I don’t feel like this anymore. I hope I love myself as much as I should. Girl, you got this, you are smart and hard working. It for sure got better because no way it can go down from here. I have a date with this ashki in a week or so. It’s crazy to think about where I’m gonna be in 5 years. I hope I found myself. I’m sitting here in my bed, thinking to myself that I need to go to sleep to wake up to go to the gym. Everything in life is so mundane. I hope you find purpose and if you didn’t yet, I hope you keep searching. I hope you’re still in the ways of hashem and growing more every day. I hope you don’t look back but keep moving forward. I love you and should love yourself.