A letter from October 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, october 25 2020 probably one the worst day of my life. i contemplated ******* myself last night &’ today has just been filled with pain &’ numbness. schools still virtual &’ it’s so draining and i dont care to even do my work rn but ik i have to or else i’ll be even more of a disappointment. i miss my friends i miss going to get food after school i miss the lunch table i miss fooling around in class. this senior year is terrible. only reason u couldn’t do it is because of anira. anytime she looks at u with her big bright brown eyes u feel like sobbing bcz u can’t imagine leaving her &’ taking that light away from her eyes &’ bringing her pain. pls tell me ur happier rn. tell me it got better. tell me u didn’t swallow a bottle of pills &’ kept going. please. i have hope that ur happy rn but i want to know if u held on &’ were able to wait long enough. ~ 10/25/20 6:16pm