A letter from October 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I am currently 15 as of right now, I’m so lost I don’t know what to do I hope in 5 years that changes and I’m not confused about what I want to do in life anymore, I hope that I actually make it to 20 and if I do make it I hope that me and Abby are still best friends. I’m writing this at what I believe is one of my lowest points in life if you don’t remember by then I’ll remind you, I have been recently diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and after my 2 seizures I’m currently on medication that I have to take twice a day I’ve been having a hard time coming to terms with everything. I know it’s probably a lot to take in and trust me it is, I just want everything to stop just for once I want something to go my way especially after what happened in 6th grade when Brian died that’s when everything started to go down hill. I just want to disappear it’s not like anyone would notice tho no one pays attention to me so I stay in my room all day. Anyways on the bright side I cut the most toxic person out of my life you probably guessed right, yea, the Sperm Donor himself, I guess I just got tired of him putting the blame for everything me like the nonexistent communication which isn’t my fault because the phone goes to ways. Anyway! I hope you’re doing well and didn’t die and like I always say “**** YOU!!”