A letter from October 15th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It should be 10/15/2025 when you receive this email Tyler, you'll also be 21 years old, almost 22. I sent this email on 10/15/2020, I was 16 years old when I sent this letter. I don't know where I'll be five years from now, honestly right now I feel my future is quite volatile given the situation. I don't know what I'll be doing 5 years from now, ideally college but I seriously don't have a clue. I've always had an issue with self-discipline, and I hope I'll be able to control my self destructing tendencies I currently have. I really don't have that much to say, however I'm going to tell you how I'm currently feeling to see if I have changed at all. Well, at the current moment, I'm a little hopeful of my second 10th grade year, I'm going into it believing I needed this, I don't know if this is the correct mindset I should be taking into this school year, because it could all go downhill, but I can at least get myself out of bed to go to school everyday. I can finish all my assignments right now, I'm seriously hoping I can make it through this school year no problem, well, there will be problems but I hope to overcome them this treacherous year. It feels a little lonely in my class since nearly most of my friends are not in them unfortunately. But I want to graduate and go college, and the travel the world, those are the desires of your 16 year old self. It'd suck if I had contracted or had some sort of terminal illness or accident that ****** me before I had a chance to read this letter, yeah that'd suck, but I digress. Hopefully you have decided what you wanted what to do in life with conviction, that' the key *Conviction* hopefully 5 years from now I wish I'll been able to make my parents, that's honestly a topic I'm also curious about. I know that Mom and Dad don't get along very well because of the circumstances revolving their marriage, which I honestly don't know much about right now in 2020. But... I think they've separated by 2025, you remember don't you Tyler? They wished for you to go to college, graduate and move on, so they don't need to worry about you or care for you. So they can finally separate, you know they are only together because they need to care for you. It's a little childish, but I hope you can do something to not mend the relationship, but I don't know just do something that'd make the sixteen year old version of yourself feel much better. Well, at least appreciate all the things they've done, because I don't really know why I'm doing all of this, and not giving up. I honestly feel like I keep going back to school for someone else, like my parents and grandma, rather then myself at the moment. Hopefully in the future I'll be able to self-advocate for myself. If they small chance that my parents haven't separated by then, I don't know that's good I guess. But 5 years for now, if you're feeling down, if it feels hopeless... There is still hope... I know the formatting of this letter is crap but it's what I'm feeling or what I want to talk about. But the one thing I wanted to tell you Tyler, when you're 21. Is that if you feel hopeless, if you like giving up, or if you feel like your life is only going downhill, which you should be able to recognize, There's hope. Hope from this sixteen year old wondering about his future. Hope from this kid who decided to not give up right now. Hope from the kid that said he doesn't like making promises about the future, but if you read this... Promise with me that you'll move on in your life, no matter what. And never give up. I know you can at least get out of bed and do what you need to do. -From Tyler, the sixteen year old one. P.S Where did all your highschool friends go? Are you still in contact with them? And also send a letter to Mr. Villet if you actually feel like it, no actually do it. Oh yeah, remember covid 2019? How did that actually end? DId the world end? Or is it all good spring 2021?