A letter from October 14th, 2020

Dear Future Me, you are are 12 years old on October 14,2020. Most people might say this is the worst year but remember you agreed not thinking about past years were people suffered more . You also thought but not said that people wanted 2021 to come so they can start with a better year you did not agree you said what if "2021" was gonna be worse or more tragic you never thought positive about 2021 . you also got sad and thought your brother and your whole family was gonna die of corona virus because u knew they had that virus . Remember how your chest hurt and your breathing slowed down but kept going because you knew if you got sick you would die because you have asthma and corona would make it worse. remember when you prayed like never before for your brothers test results to come negative and when it came positive you freaked out and could not control your tears. Remember those thought that all your family was gonna die and leave alone with nothing. Remember having to have work due late and a whole night for homework. but its not only negative that you have to remember . remember how your brother just got tested positive but didn't have strong symptoms . remember when you dad and mom had a hard time breathing but God gave them one more billions and millions of breaths more . remember how your parents stayed strong for you . remember that God gave you health and strength. just remember that it was not the best year because even while that was happening you couldn't figure yourself out weather i wanted to be a boy or a girl . remember texted your two friend s which weren't much friends for help because you just couldn't figure yourself out. remember the lonely nights how you thought that your friends and family didn't love you or where going to leave you. or how the mean things your family tells you made you think you were nothing but nothing. Just remember how just because you got good grades they put you in higher classes so you just looked at the other classmates answer in a sec and your brain was about to explode of how hard it was. remember how you felt little like pinky from Pinky and the brain in the middle of lots of "the brain" .remember how even if it was hard you took a math test that would get you to a harder class but you had this weird logic that if you went to high classes you could get to college like Shenandoah university and you knew it was impossible yet you still tried. Remember going to help you dad weed wack big territories because he wasn't healthy yet But over all you stayed strong and when you were 12 you know why this letter sounds like its talking to someone else because the future me now is the you at this time I know its weird but who know where your at KEEP GOING because this is not done yet , LOVE GOD because he helps you through everything, ENJOY WHAT YOU HAVE NOW because it may finish. woohoo you reach the end future self . I know its hard to believe this happened to us . byeee i hope you day is better in many ways