A letter from October 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey, 14 year old Avery here. I know you may not have expected this, but I wanted to wish you happy 20th birthday. I honestly have a couple questions and things to talk about so this'll probably be awhile. First off, how are you? I hope we're doing okay, and if not, it'll get better, I promise. I'm not doing all that well at the moment, I'm stressed about school, I'm scared of being outed, I'm stressed about if I'm demisexual, polyamorus, demigirl, nonbinary, ect. To be honest, I don't think I'll make it to 20. I probably won't. But, do me a favor? Tell Dewey and Jr how much we love them if we haven't recently. And promise me you'll stay. If you don't have a reason to keep going, stay for 14-year-old you. Let me be your reason, prove me wrong. Have you moved out yet? I hope so, living under the same roof with a dad who has negative energy is so draining. I don't really enjoy anything like I used to. Laughing and happy when playing video games with friends, and then all negative around your family and denying the fact that all you do is play on your computer really cutting it for me. Do you love your body yet? It's okay if you don't, it takes time. Loving your body doesn't mean not having any insecurities, it's being okay with it to the point of wearing whatever you want. And honestly, I believe you can rock whatever the **** you want. Have you come out to the rest of our family and friends? You better have cut off any homophobic/biphobic family members and friends. It's okay if you're struggling with gender identity or *********. Those types of things are fluid. Have you been diagnosed with anything? I have a feeling we have depression and an anxiety disorder. Maybe ADD? Worst part is that I don't feel comfortable talking to mom or a doctor about it. That's all I wanted to say. There's just one thing I have to say. I love you. From, PastYou