A letter from September 24th, 2020

Dear future me Hello my lovely! How are you doing? Hope that okay💕 Now I'm in 2020 year, and that's really ****** year, hope that it’s the only ****** year. Currently, I am first year student at university. Freshmen. And now, at 1 a.m., instead of doing my homework for tomorrow’s morning lesson, I am writing letter to myself, sometimes I can be really stupid) I cannot lie to myself, so I am going to tell the truth, it’s really exhausting I’m feeling stress 24/7 and it seems like never ending. By the way, please, tell me that Larry Styllinson is real and they are living happily. So, today I read really interesting article which I suppose should help me. The main point of that article was acceptance of own feelings, all feelings, even sad or painful because it’s better than do not feeling anything. If someone asks how you are feeling right now, you should not think about which feeling would be right, ‘’normal’’, but instead what you are feeling in reality. It’s not essay about feelings, so I won’t dig too deep into the topic. But I am going to ask, did you accept and forgive the person which give you the trauma, and did anybody know about it? Especially, family? I wish no one will never know about it. I am mentally really strong, so I do not think that I have mental illnesses. I’m not going to ask about studies or work, because both of them sucks. The only thing I want to know, are you happy right now? Are doing the stuff that you like. For some reason, I am really scared to ask something about family, so I won’t. As to personal life, I prefer you being alone, even though after 5 years you would be almost 22 years old. Okay? No boys, no girls! But honestly, I just know that you are too scared of people and won’t let them in your life so you can continue pretending like you hate all of them Only if its not Harry Styles, but fortunately, he will be with Louis Tomlinson. Shut the ****, he will, *****! I love you! Please, stay strong. Everything will be alright! Love u! XOXO