2020

Dear FutureMe, God **** it I really hope we made it until this day, if we did CONGRATULATIONS you're my hero. If we didn't, I know you made your best, hopefully you're happy now. Probably at this point I don't know if I'll make it, but I know that I'm scared about the future, don't know if you are going to be in another country, I hope you do, please don't be mad at me, I'm trying my best to let you be where you are, just please don't give up, I know how tired you can feel, how you cry inside and how your tears appears at midnight, days ain't easy nights are even worse hope you have found love, the really one, where you dance under the rain and you sit watching the stars while you're drinking a beer, someone who loves everything about you, from the way how you love changing your hair color to how you can get with almost EVERY movie just because that's what you deserve, definitely nothing's less than that, don't take less don't take someone who text you eventually and only want you for ***, don't take someone who tells you that you need to change because that's something that they don't like, yes you do have mistakes and you're not perfect but there is no reason to spread the hate around yourself just because a love that doesn't makes you feel in peace with your past your present and dream about your future. if you have any tattoos I want to see them, I don't have any right now, but I really wish to have some. I want to know... Did you travel around the world as you want to? Maybe took a while.. but hey culture, food and music are always something amazing to see, I really hope Colombia is better now and that your family is safe, what about your cat? Is he as cute as how he used to be? Or is he more grumpy? Please remember, don't be afraid, bad moments comes and goes but happiness has always be part of you, for good or bad. Do you love your body now? I started that journey a few months ago and I think it hasn't been that bad, I'm not perfect... But I don't want to, I just want to live, maaaaaany years as possible. Hopefully for this point you have been in any concert that you wanted to be.... Tell me, who was the lucky artist that took your first time? It's okay if you haven't been in one, but please remember that feeling that the music gives you, the shivers, tear, screams and love that it has showed you, don't stop singing, you know that makes you happy. You know how scared I'm about the fact that it probably is not me the one that's reading this? I feel that someone else is doing it, if that's the case hey!! This is young me!! Sorry I left you soon, but I tried my best, sorry letting you down, I really hopped to made it until this day, I hate my birthday but I think I can work it out, I'm ******* scared of future, but I also think there is a chance for me, even if it doesn't look like. Now I'm going to remind you a few things, Covid sucks, simba is still trying to bite your feets when you sleep, your mom is beautiful even when she says she isn't, your brother likes to wake you up in the Jhon cena style... He's weird but he is also trying to fight, remember that and don't leave him alone, he needs you more than what he says, I really hope your grandmas still being with you I mean, they made a big part about who you are, don't forget to show them love.... What about your dad? How is he doing? Is everything better between you two right now? He, just like your brother, has his own devil inside, but he tries his best. By the time you're studying comunicación design hopefully you finish this one, but if you didn't then what are you currently doing? Do you still being into photography? PLEASE TELL ME YOU BECAME FAMOUS AND WE CAN KEEP SLEEPING UNTIL 9 AND MAKE OUR SCHEDULE IN OUR WAY, do you remember the call center? And how much you used to hate waking up that early? Well.. that's the reason why I think you started your own business or something like that? Do you got your own home and made it eco friendly as how you wanted to? Full of pets and plants, with a big library and a balcony, a pool and.... Everything you ever wanted..... Now everything seems really distant for me, like a dream, and that's what keeps me going, the dreams, hope that you get to see them become true, BECAUSE YOU DESERVE IT I know I talk about deserving things waaaaaay too much, but I think that you really forget how much your worth is but people around you are also forgetting to tell you. I love you, Even if no one else does I do Please don't give up Your dreams are closer than what it looks like I JUST WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY And don't forget..... JUST KEEP SWIMMING