A letter from September 12th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, So I am on my way to falmouth for my second year at university. We are still in the grips of the coronavirus pandemic. Actually the UK’s r number has just increased. So basically everyone is very stressed out. At present Mum, Andrew & Annie are listening to radio 4 as we drive down to falmouth. Yesterday i ran 24 kilometres which is just over 15 miles. I am actually really looking forward to running again while in falmouth. Molly and i set off for the run, it was warm and we started off on a slow jog up the hills. I remember feeling so tired and sore to begin with. Once we had gotten into the run however it was amazing. Like the views were stunning and we kept a good pace, or roughly a good pace. My knee wasn’t too bad. I am surprised by my ability. Turns out that Molly knew half the route and i knew the other half so we really did compliment each other. The first 13k was truely blissful and it is making me want to run 10k as my weekly run. I might run 5km Mondays 3km Tuesdays 7.5km Wednesdays 1km thursdays 10km Friday 5.5km Saturday 10km Sunday As my new running schedule. I am also planning to do some climbing on a Sunday too, possibly on a Wednesday. Then on sunday I’ll have athletics. I actually am really excited to do an atheletics club. It was amazing towards the end of the run because Molly and i were properly tired by the last 10k however we kept going, the last 6k we were just silent with each other. I also managed to run into the wind and some dust flew into my eye. Luckily i really do love & know my route so therefore i didn’t need my eyes open to keep going. Molly just warned me when a car was due. I really liked that. Then when we got back we did yoga and watched Michaella Long. She always reminds me of molly because she has Molly Vibes and I showed Molly at last and she is now hooked. Also Molly had to take henry (her puppy) to the vets in the morning. So she was late which gave me more time to pack. Luckily most of my packing was done by then. I have noted down all which I have. I am quite proud of my skincare. I have since accumulated quite the collection. I am looking into investing in some products from the ordinary, notiably Salicylic acid And Niachinamide I am going to get some from Boots. I normally just pick up skin care from tkmaxx but no more, now i am getting deliberate. I still, though, stand by veljean labs. Okay so last night i didn’t really sleep too well. I know what you’re probably wondering “why?” Well, after my run i was still struggling to see and then on top of that my face kept getting flushed and i felt rather sick. I was also pretty anxious since i have no idea what this new house is going to look like. OKay so situation with Friends. I am unsure why but i really do feel a stronger connection with Tolli at present. I don’t know how to describe it but i feel his love so strong right now. Ever since i almost died by overdosing on magnesium (which helped me loose weight so i think that it is all good in moderation) i just feel like he loves me. I get love energy from him. I see him humming in a very narrow pin hole way. He is focused. What do I expect ? I think that i shall probably have a dry date with Batice and Pyran. I think that Tolli and I will kiss again and in fact i actually really hope for this. I primarily hope that Tolli and i end up working together because I have been waiting to create with him for years. I do love him so much but i love his creativity more. Expectations from my course, are minimal. I just hope that the education will be worth while because at present it really isn’t looking all that great. I hope that i can go into the studios more. I am worried about my future and i am worried about the course. I am excited for skincare, for running, for writing, creating and seeing Tolli again. I hope that I have lost weight i want to just maintain 55kg so i think that if i just drop down 53kg then i have wigggle room. Plan? Once i arrive in falmouth, unpack, unload, put away. First will be my food to go in the fridge. I will try and empty the bigger thicker boxes as they will be unable to be stored in my room effectively. I am going to unpack my clothes, hang them up, fill up the draws with minimal things. My bathroom stuff will most likely take up the most space. Anyway, once all that is done i shall be popping down to boots to look for the ordinary, then I’ll go for a walk around the beaches and possibly meet up with Pyran if i am feeling spicy. I have asked Tolli to call me tonight however i don’t know if he will. Additionally I need to go to the shops: Food needed: Bananas Scales Lettuce Alpro if they’re still on sale And Spinach I don’t know when Tolli is planning on coming down but when he does I am hoping that we shall watch the moonrise such as we did last year. Annie is sitting next to me and she is now playing on her iPad, she fell asleep on me earlier and I was reminded of just how much I deeply love her. She is my sunshine in the dark and she always puts a smile on my face. The fact that i have to go to university while she is still growing into her own person is challenging but it does make the changes more profound when i return home. This year, with the pandemic she really has grown as a person. I feel so proud to have spent lockdown with my sister. I also have to go to the hairdressers to dye my hair. I want to be blonde. Kindest regards Poppy 23 years 6 months and 20 days old. En route to university