A letter from September 11th, 2020

Dear future self, My hopes are that I will get into an art school, I’d prefer New York or japan because they have the two best art schools. My biggest fears are that I won’t get into an art school and my other biggest fear is that I won’t have a family in the future. I like to spend time with most of my family and I enjoy doing crafts with my mom while watching movies. I dislike Christmas because people don't care about the fact that Christmas is about family and all people care about are presents. I like my hair and my eyes, and I dislike everything else about myself. A lot of things bother me but I try to ignore them because they tend to make my anxiety spike. I tend to keep what the houses I live in look like but my bedroom at my moms house is two rooms, We knocked down the wall that separated them so I have one big room and the room at my dad's house is about an average size. School life is okay but there are alot of people that hate me for no reason. My favorite place is a park that is near my moms house, it's called antioch park and it's super peaceful. I have a few chores but they are just basic things, and no I don’t get any type of allowance or anything. I have 8 pets at my moms house and only 2 at my dads. I don't have a favorite book but my favorite movie is definitely the Harry Potter movies, I have a few favorite songs and a favorite artist, but not a favorite band; my favorite song is Welcome to Wonderland by Anson Seabra and my favorite artist is Alec Benjamin. My hobbies are just simple things, I like to do art but mainly draw, I do some crafts but not much, I love spending time with my online friends and writing stories. When I’m alone I tend to draw a lot, and I don't spend time with friends out of school. My favorite snack is probably chips or ice cream, my favorite food is grilled cheese and mac n’ cheese. I don’t really like talking about my family much as it’s difficult for me. My hopes for my future seem like most people to me. I want to go to college but I’ll end up going a few times for different reasons. I'm also looking forward to having a family in the future as I want to have kids. I also want to visit a few places like Hawaii and Ohio. To myself; Just take life slow, don't rush it and don't let people in so quickly, people tend to hurt you when you let them in and that's your biggest reason for your anxiety and depression, also you should know that you need to love yourself before you love anyone else because if you don't then you will never feel whole. If you haven't already then talk with a therapist regularly because I feel like it will do you some good. -Sincerely, yourself ( 9-11-2020 )