A letter from September 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, September 9, 2020. I decided to cut ties with my friends for almost four years. Ciehon and Diana. Honestly, I feel bad for doing it but I need peace of mind. I felt like I was left behind and both of you were slowly drifting away for me since we're actually parting ways. I felt like nobody will reach me out so I got ahead and left both of you instead. I left our group chat, unfriend the two of you, ignore your incoming messages but 24 hrs have passed. I'm right. No one really reaches out, like what happened to me? Is there something wrong? None. So for the last time, I message both of you yesterday. Gain my consciousness and finally get on my feet. And now, both of you kept on calling me, crying, making excuses. Idk. I'm actually sick of it. But I still love you both. Sorry for doing it but I'm doing this for myself. I finally have the guts to disconnect from people who messed with my peace of mind. So for the future me, I just want you to know that right now, I don't feel any regret, yet. I still don't know if I'm gonna regret it. By the time you will receive this, I'd be happy to know if they continue reaching me out and finally got the chance to reconnect and make the bond stronger. But I'd still be happy if they don't, tho maybe a little sad. I'd still be happy whatever the outcome is. By that time, maybe I absolutely value and love the essence of solitude.