A letter from September 7th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi. Recently I've been thinking about my future. In just a couple months I feel like a completely different person. Everything has changed. I can only imagine what I'll be like in 5 years. Who I'll be in 5 years. Most importantly though, I hope I'm happy. I'm at the lowest point in my life right now, not even going to sugar coat it. Recently I went to therapy for the first time with Mom. I took an anxiety and depression test and tested clinically severe for both. It was a lot to take in, still is. I'm scared I'll never get better. I've had a lot of suicidal thoughts and I'm really scared. I don't want to leave my family, but I'm so tired of fighting. I hope that this letter reaches me one day, I hope this letter gets to a happy, successful version of me. I don't know exactly what that looks like. All I know is that if you've made it this far, I'm proud of you. I truly am. You've gone through so much and have made it so far. I promise to just try to keep hanging on for you.