A letter from September 6th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey you. I don't know where you are in life right now but I am currently freaking out. I start my junior year in 2 friken days! I'm terrified of what's going to happen. I have all these plans in my head that are all spinning and I'm scared. We turn 17 at the end of the year and then one more to adulthood yay us. iubfilhgrbbihgri. 5 years. How old are we? 21 right? about to be 22 **** you old. So much will change from then but I wonder how much will all stay the same. Are you still close to Vivi and Twin? I hope so I love those dummies so much. Did we all end up having our Twinpalooza? If not I hope we at least had our annual birthday countdown. Do you know what you want to do with our life? I sure as hell don't I guess I can be unsure bc I'm only 16 but 22 seems like an age where you should start knowing what way your walking. does that make sense? Watch us be just as lost or even more. Did we go to Europe instead of school here in the US? I hope we traveled. How are mother and father? Are they still ok? is dad more healthy? Mom less mom? I hope they are happy. Hows kid? Do we still call him that or do we call him by his name, little bother? I hope we still have a nickname for him. he's what 18. WTH, 18 eww that sounds weird. Is his voice deeper? Is he taller? I hope we still put him in his place whenever we feel like it. what are big sisters for? Hows jasmine is she still the same old chocolate hating yet oreo loving? no matter where anyone is we will be fine we always make it through ig we got childhood trauma to thank huh. And to add to that trauma lets ask the special question. How many more people have died? that many huh. were we abuelita sad or nana sad? or were we MJ sad. Morbid huh we use pass deaths to categorize the level hurt. anyway lol next topic i guess i could ask you some questions and answer them myself and see if i still think the same way later. If you could chose any element to bend what element would you choose? for me this one takes a bit to decide but for sure not air sorry aang. see the born and raised SOCAL girl in me says earth bc i rlly don't want to deal with the earthquakes. plus astrologically Capricorn is earth so yeah. Omg has the faultline gone off yet!? I remember back in 2015 kasoyan was going crazy bc supposedly the day before the movie came out the big one was going to hit. The logical part in says Water for obvious reasons. 75% and all. But the Simp in me says fire bc of the guys lol. Ik that's bad but can you blame me. that probably just embarrassed the crap out of you knowing that there's a possibility that someone else read that. I think imma have to go with water bc although its rare blood bending lowkey sounds fun. I ran out of words for that one. next question dead or alive who would you like to spend the day with? I still choose Nana you don't just erase the first decade of your life and she was basically my mom back then. I realised the other day that she was alive for the past pandemic. I would ask about that. I would ask if she had any regrets. What was birthday present supposed to be all those years ago right before she passed. Kinda sucked that i got ashes instead of a birthday card. I would ask more about her tattoo she used to call boboo. About the valley before the plane crash. I would ask her more simple stuff too. what her favorite color was. time of day. what was the best thing that ever happened to her. whats the best piece of advice she would give me. I am currently crying again **** it. 6 years since she passed and i still cry from time to time thinking about her. One last question. what is your favorite memory from the past 3 years. so from late 2022 to present time. for me I'm still counting 8th grade bc i feel like it and i can. the lel that one night at pier 36 we were all acting dumb but we danced with all those college students and that robot man. i later found out that people were judging us and thought we looked dumb but that was some main character ****. We were laughing so hard we looked dumb but were having fun bc we were together in the middle of san fransico i think. I hope you have a good memory perferibly one with no photos because that means you live in the moment to the fullest. cant wait to see what i have to say in five years about this. see you on the other side i guess. ps. to anyone who read this my sc is rossy_1223 doubt anyone would want it but we'll see.