A letter from September 5th, 2020

Dear Future Me, Wassuppp. stuffs been hard you were here sitting in our house at the white desk in the corner with one leg propped up on the side of the desk wearing a green sweatshirt and gray shorts. you were listening to slowed sad songs on YouTube the chillin :( playlist. reading sad quotes on pinterest. stuffs happened dad got deported to India, were still living in this house. im probably in college reading this a few days before Christmas. merry Christmas ig. if I'm still alive. Ruchi has probably graduated college and Mohil probably chillin with Luna. Janvi in 12th grade and Radhey in 9th grade. Reshma probably married Parks. Kishan idk maybe found someone and he stills has a great job. Are you happy? Are you OK? Cs i wasn't back then. I really wasn't I hope you've come out to your parents and hope dad's back. Did you ever figure out if your bi, les, or pan? lolll. You got a boyfriend or girlfriend? I don't I'm a lonely *** mf. I don't know what else to say. I hope my anxiety has gone down a little and I hope I'm not in a dark place anymore. I hope I have loving friends and I hope baa and fia don't still live with us. What am I learning in college? I want to be a meteorologist but I'm thinking about sports medicine. It just sounds cool to me. Do you still talk to Kiera and Zaria and Kalise and Leah and Aniyah and Jordis and Emmarie? They were your best friends in 9th grade. My aesthetic rn is street wear/skater vibes. I hope you bought a skateboard to go to your classes. I was thinking about college in Texas where'd you go? You wanted to be as far as possible from your family. Are you guys okay now? I hope you cleaned out your snap and insta of the depressing stuff. Your music taste was Billie Eilish, Juice Wrld, NAV, Tyler the creator, Frank Ocean, SZA, Girl in Red, Harry Styles, and Conan Gray. I hope your birthdays going well. Do you still read watt pad lol? Remember After? My favorite songs were Mr. Loverman and Sleep thru ur alarms. Who's your bestie now? I hope your not crying reading this and it brings back memories you want. I just wanted to go back to the way things were in 2016 when both the families got together and we went on trips together and we were all happy. I felt the divide. I felt everyone getting ripped apart. I don't know but I still haven't healed from all this. Did tiktok get banned? Probably not. I hope someone over took Trump, that dumbass. Did you get a phone lol? Did you get yourself some money? Did you tell your family about your mental health problems? Did you glow up? Do people think your pretty now? I hope your somebody's favorite person now. I hope people ask what you felt. I hope you got more confident and love yourself. I want you to grow not be in the same place. I love you if nobody has told you that yet. I do. Not in 2020 but in 2025. I love you. I do so much.