A letter from September 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Sup gorgeous i hope we’re having a good blessed day You have a fish memory so imma let you remember everything Well i’m depressed at the moment It all happened when you realized the difference between your life and the others - ur sister, aunties Cuz our dad is treating us like shit He’s not fair when it comes to us *you and ur beautiful sis* And ur aunties are not living like you cuz they let go of him a long time ago, i hope one day my mom will think about leaving him cuz i’m in this situation cuz of him I’m where i am cuz of him, he would never change, He don’t wanna see you truly for who you are, and who you are is beautiful, a strong gay muslim girl, he just wanna have the daughter that he wants, all covered from head to toe and he won’t accept that i’m different, i know it’s complicated gurl but IT IS WHAT IT IS, you’ve been fighting for ur future Never stop that, i know that you’ll make that movie that you’re always dreaming bout. JUST WORK FOR IT KEEP WORKING NEVER STOP GIGI!! i think about going to a Therapist soon cuz we’re drowning baby Ugh depression is killing me gigi But i know you’ll make it out alive We can’t cry, we feel like throwing up 24/7, we’re locked up in this house, you sleep for hours like seriously 15 hours a day! I quit cigarettes i hope that your still doing that, you just got back to working out I HOPE THAT YOU REACHED YOUR GOAL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Now focus on what i’m gonna say cuz it’s the most important thing on this letter... you’re beautiful, you’re strong and smart. All your friends loves you cuz you’re special! Ur spirit is different It’s alive! And i know that at the moment we’re not but you’ll stand again and put ur head high like always, If you want something you always can get it, i’m amazed by you gigi, you’re my lil baby and i’m here to protect you and be there for you You and me we’ve been living this life together, we’re on soul And that’s why I’ll always be there for you.