A letter from August 30th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I hope you are doing well future self. are you finally moving on from the hurt that you need to let go of from the past? Are you and your anxiety on better terms? Do you still want to be a psych major? If not, what's our goal now? How is your niece, Taylor's kid? How's Natalia, Italy, xaris, and Maddie? How is Gerald? Are you with Gerald still or did something happen? Are we married and having kids yet? I hope we are happy. Being 19 just started and I know we have a long way to go but I hope you have found a new sense of love towards us. We have been through so much I just want to be happier and better. I know we will make it but sometimes we have hella doubts. But when don't we? You know how I am. How was Greece? AND Germany? Maybe even England? I hope mom and dad are okay. And so are Saffy and the pets. Most of all, I hope you are okay and living and being healthy. We don't give ourselves much credit like everyone says we should. I'm sorry I am so hard on myself and hate myself. I am so sorry how bad I've treated myself in the past, I know God was bawling when they saw how ****** I am towards myself. Please love yourself, Sophia. Because I don't know if I'll have anybody in five years so we need ourselves. We live for ourselves alright? Happy birthday Sophia. You're so beautiful and such a badass. We're the strongest person know. Go smoke a blunt and drink a glass of wine. You deserve it.