A letter from August 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, i'm going through allot i'm trying to cover up stuff but it's not working and that's really sad and sets me really back, i just wish to die and i hope u r dead bec u fuxking deserve *****, to be relieved from this disgusting place... i will miss you, and i know that u will miss allot of people... but sometimes i can't stay strong i want to finish it and get over it, but i don't wanna miss my mom i want her with me i just ******* love her and my siblings, but stuff gotta happen sometimes... and if u r alive and ur good and feeling better i hope that u r with someone that loves you unconditionally, and i hope that ur still friends with andrea rajana benita dilara and salma... if not... that's lowkey sad but yeah...i hope ur doing good and i hope everyone else is doing good💖 ily so much and i'm sorry if i ****** myself and if someone else is reading this email... i fkng loved myself, i am the greatest person ever, in dead bec of ppl that can't stop from being so ******* disgusting to me, i hate being alive bec i hate being bullied i hate being nothing i hate being anything.... i'm beautiful i'm great but i'm dead everyone else is thriving but i'm dead everyone else is living their life's and i'm dead. it happened. i'm sorry about it... but it happened💖 happy birthday if ur alive and if not idk happy birthedbutnotaliveanymorebecukilledurselfday✨😌💅🏻 xoxo aisha