A letter from August 25th, 2020

Dear future Rora. How are you? In this moment, you are calm and everything makes perfect sence. But overall, you're sick. Youre dealing with trauma that happend a Long time ago, and you've finally have an appointment with the psychiatrist! We love that for me. Recently you started dealing with the fact that grandma passed away due to cancer. It didn't help that her boyfriend passed away, out of the blue, a few months later. You've been really sad evertime you think of her, and your eyes are watering at this moment. It's really hard for you to deal with this emotion. You also quit your job at your sisters, and went on a month long ago vacation to momma. You started a new job as a waitress, but you're too i stressed and depressed to work, so you are on leave right now. You hate it! Not being on leave, but the fact that you just started working there and then goes on leave. Youre extremely nervous about money. You're b r o k e rn, but luckily you have an understanding roommate - whom you just moved in to! You're sharing a bed, remember? 😂 You guys have an incredible relationship, an you talk and laugh about any thing! She's always there for you. When your heart has been broken, and need a shoulder to sob on. She's the friend you've always needed. You deserve her, vise versa. I have so many dreams for you. Did you ever start selling your art? Did you stop making it? Are you reading more? How's mom? And dad? Do you have your own car, appartmennt or atleast your drivers licence? Are you in love with someone? - if so, how long? If not, are you in love? Are you comfortable in your body? Are your mind thinking better than it does right now? Do you have children? Where are you located? Did you ever travel to a small town in a foreign country? Have you learned anything new - a skill? Are you still sining to calm you down? Or just in general? Rn you favorite song is Home by Edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros. It makes you belive in love. What's you favorite song right now? How does your hair look? Do you love you job? I am so curious about you. Its hard for me to imagine you. Remember, we always thought we would die very young? I still struggle believing that YOU will make it. I hope you do. I will fight for you to make it. I'm tearing up. Besides all that, here's something about you and your life rn: You are feeling very sad, that the doctor is moving back to his home. You had a wonderful time and experience with him. You really had your hopes up. He was the best man you've ever been with. Now I'm tearing up again. You feel very lucky to experience this as often as you do. You never give up on love, silly you. 🥺 You miss your mama. So much. Your relationship is very good, and you really think it will keep going this good way. You're afraid of her dieing. And "step" dad too. And your little brother? He is such a nice young man. He's 8 now. Just a kid.. It hurts you so much that you're not there for him. But you know you have to be there for you first. You're sacrificing so much for them, therefore for you. You want to take as much distance as you can from your birth father. You've had enough, he has done too little for you to be okay with him. How are your relationship now? I'm so excited to be you Rora, you have no idea. I really hope we are doing amazing! Until next time, Love, yourself. Age:22