A letter from August 25th, 2020

dear older coco, hey ***** im not sure if you'll read this hopefully you will you just dont check your emails a lot. its 10:35pm on Tuesday 25 august, i am currently 15 years old. i am going through a bit of a tough time. do you remember? dad has just moved to south port, me and aiden broke up, i lost my whole friendship group. i start school in less then 2 weeks, year 11! I can not lie i am kinda scared. i have a lot of questions and i wish i could have all the answers but i know i cant. how were your GCSE Results? did you make little me proud? what actually happened with you and aiden? did he ever come back? did you carry on being a bad ***** and get over him? do you even remeber aiden? hows mum and dad? is louis okay? what are you currently doing with your life? did you get a job? what summer was the best summer for you? how was your a level results? do you still want to do law or have you changed your path? how much do you have in your bank account? have any of your loved ones died? im sorry if they did? have you been diagnosed with anything? what happened with enzo? do you have any other pets? do you know what happened with lily or katie? what was the toughest thing youve had to go through? have you met myla yet? do you still manifest or do shadow work? where do you live? how are you actually feeling? do you still smoke weed? have you been clubbing? whats the coolest thing you have done? did you do anymore drugs? did louis get help? have you been in any reltionships? whats your *********? do you remeber asa? are you happy with the way you look? do you have any tattoos or piercings? how was your 18th? i cant believe that your 20 nearly 21. im going to write a bit about my current life, its currently summer and its been **** we have just come out of lockdown pretty much and i have basically lost everyone. i really hope louis, mum and dad are okay i wouldnt know what id do without them. i have no idea what your doing or where your life is at the moment but little coco is proud of you because i know your going to be doing something impressive. i guess i wish i could talk to you. im not very happy at the moment but im learning to love myself and know my worth i should just stop smoking as much weed. hopefully i will in september. are you at uni? i dream about the day i get to move out of this ******** and discover another life with new people and a different name for myself. all i am asking of you is that you put yourself first. you do whats best for you i want you to be happy. if you are reading this right now can you text your mum, dad, louis, bestfriend, boyfriend anyone.tell them that you love them i have been un grateful for people in the past and im bad at showing people how much i apperiate them. i hope your pretty, i hope your a bad *****. as for me i am going to start focusing on myself and glow the **** up. if no one has told you today, i love you and i am proud of you. from your broken slightly ****** up fifteen year old self x p.s whatever your doing i love you. also if enzos died im sorry