A letter from August 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, reading this back you’re probably gonna cringe at what you wrote at the age of 17, but hopefully it’ll be worth it to see if you’re in a better place a few years later. i wish for you to be successful throughout your studies and whatever you end up doing, i hope it makes you happy and not miserable like everyone else in this corporate capitalist working world. the last 3 years have been some of the worst years of our life whether that be academically, family wise or mentally and emotionally, but you’ve made it even though there was a lot of breaking points when you said to end it when it got to the worst parts. i pray that you get to at least a more stable and bearable part of your life although your 20’s aren’t typically the most happiest, but hopefully that can be changed with alot of the things that you plan to do. has the world ended yet? obviously if it were there’s no way anyone would see this nor you but this is the only issue that’s always been on your mind when i couldn’t stop it from tearing you apart, leading to the most negative thoughts, clouding out any drop of optimism for the future. and if not, you’ll be able to read this back when you’re able to again (let’s just pray you can). are you in University? still in college? or are you just gone straight into employment? either way i can’t wait to find out what you are doing but all i know is it’s probably something great just like you. remember that promise that you’d stay with mum always and keep her with you forever? i hope you’ve kept that promise, she deserves happiness and the best things in the world and plus she’s just really clingy so i doubt she’d ever leave you LMAOOO. speaking of mum has she found someone again after the split? also are you still hugely single after that one failed relationship when you decided not to let anyone in whilst being a hopeless romantic or have you finally fallen in love again for the second time? i can’t wait to see how this turns out your love life was always on the rocks i swear. and if not it’s okay, i’ve realised that the world doesn’t revolve around just romance and there’s a LOT more to life than just that also all that love stuff just sucks tbh and gives me the ick. i hope you’ve managed to find the courage to leave the house and travel alone to different countries not having to stress about money and every little thing as you usually would. but i get if you still are, a lot changes in five years but i don’t hear of alot of 22 year olds that have a ton of money and have their life together and sorted. you’re still a kid but you’re also not, you’ve got a long time to plan things out but mum and dad aren’t gonna be there for every little thing !! even your part time job if you’re still working one, has to contribute to all your expenses so don’t be lazy. i hope you’re taking care of dede and hadika, they’re the ride or dies and ur bestfriends, make sure nothing changes with them. i can imagine dede’s moved out and living out her modelling dream after getting her cool psychology degree and hadika’s just finished high school and applying to universities for her childhood ambition to be a dermatologist. keep them happy in any way you can as their sister. oh i almost forgot! i hope bruno’s doing good, the little angel alhamdulillah for him man i don’t know where i would be without him he literally saved our life. i hope he’s still kicking about 5 years later, make sure he makes a cameo at your wedding remember i’ve not forgot about that lol. i also hope you’ve made lifelong new friends but keep your circle small, don’t make the same mistake twice. miss corona is here for now which i think is gonna be an obstacle for our 18th birthday but we had that coming, not sure how long it’s gonna last but you’ll know in the future. okay i think i’ve covered everything, the last and only thing i want to tell you is, i hope you’re happy, don’t force things making you more sad but i hope these new opportunities open windows to you becoming more happy and doing good. thank god for your existence everyday and make the seconds count. you’re so so amazing, funny as fuvk, mature, smart in your own way, and beautiful. keep it that way, see you in five years.