A letter from August 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I just saw this website on tiktok so i decided to try it out and see if it works. I'm writing this late at night even though I'm supposed to leave early tomorrow morning to go camping with Tasha, Lola, and some other people. I'm gonna be doing shrooms for the first time tomorrow! I hope you remember the excitement I'm currently feeling for my first trip :). Anyways, I wanted to write this because I wanted to see how you were doing and all that stuff especially since I feel so lost atm. I'm gonna be doing my a level exams this year and I have no motivation to work for them, I don't know if it's because of my lack of interest in my subjects or just my laziness. Either way I see no future for myself, I can't see myself thriving in any kind of career, I've basically completely lost hope in my future. I hope you have found something I love doing, a hobby or career or anything like that. I hope you have found the love of your life (currently you're obsessing over this waiter in Turkey) and I really hope you've widened your knowledge on spirituality. I'm going through a crisis rn where I have no idea what is real and what isn't. I don't know what to trust anymore. Everything is so perfectly cruel. I hope Trump is gone, Boris too ofcofc. I hope the world is doing better though I have doubts that it will be. The family's all doing well, Dad is finding a new job, Mum is doing gr8 at her job, Julian is doing gr8 at Oxford with Valentina and with Jonas I have no idea how he is doing. I hope you're not as much of a ***** to everyone as I am rn, especially with your Mum and Jonas. I hope you're less jealous, I hope you're not as angry at everything as I am anymore. Idk what else to write and I'm getting tired so I'm gonna leave it as this even though it's ****. from 17 year old Tia <3