A letter from August 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hi liv, it's liv from the past -(24th august 2020, 6:21pm, 19) currently you're going into your second year of university- I'm honestly loving it. hopefully by the time I read this in 5 years I will be in an amazing job (well I know im gonna be doing my dream job) , but hopefully its all good for you liv?. currently there's a global pandemic going on, wonder if corona will be as deadly in 5 years time, lets hope not ehh. anyway its a confusing time for everyone, and I kinda feel like im discovering myself all over again its confusing but I know that this means progress and growth for me personally. idk just feel a bit weird rn. this year was really intense but obviously all these events have made me grow as a person, and ultimately I've learnt a lot about myself, as well as how to handle things and situations better. my little baby passed away which literally ***** me every time I think about it. jack and I had also broken up after 3 years, a few months after we had broken up though its literally made me realise how **** and suffocating that relationship was. yeah sure he loved me but there's no waaay in hell id ever get into another relationship like that again or with him for that matter- I love him still but I can't do that to myself. just thinking about all the **** he had done is awful and it was so disrespectful to me like no why would I want that in a partner. and its fortunately made me realise that I can't do that to myself like why the fuuuccckkk would I want a partner who doesn't really give a **** about anything, I want someone who's ambitious and outgoing. we got a kitten and a little puppy called Binx & Red now as well, they are honestly my worlds, my little precious Binx is literally everything to me. i also started talking to Steve and we've arranged to see each other weekly lol, I don't know what's come over me like this is a crazy thing for me to do but ukkno you have to do what you have to do lol- kinda makes me feel gross thinking about it but its gotta be done. im also moving into our uni house in a week on the 2nd of sept, im so fricking excited you have nnoo idea- well guess you do lol because you're literally me !! its weird thinking back at the old liv, it kinda doesn't feel like that's me when I think back to my younger self. im honestly so proud of myself for overcoming all the **** that I've put up with and all the **** I've handed out myself as well. and hopefully ive stopped smoking weed now because I do kind of feel like its holding me back a bit. im also proud of the things I've managed to do at my age, passed my driving test at 17, had a job, finished college with D*D*D* which is equivalent to A*A*A*and got into my first choice university studying law, whilst looking after my bipolar boyfriend which literally felt like I had a child- wouldn't change anything for the world though. you're an amazing and a very wise person, and I honestly love you for that liv. anyway liv you're literally so ******* amazing, I honestly think im one of the kindest people I know besides my amazing mum obviously, I love her and the whole fam. keep moving forward, all those times I thought I couldn't do it but you ******* done it !! that obviously proves that I have and can accomplish literally anything that I set myself and put my mind to. iloveyou liv 💘💘💘 you've got this !!! Xxxxx