A letter from August 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey! Right now is a really rough time. The world is so hectic and I am feeling really lost and alone. I have this urge to grow up and move away so I can live my own life but I also feel scared for what the future holds for me. I feel too lovable and not loves enough. My relationship with my family and friends doesn't feel right and I don't know how to make it better. I recently found out I am bi and only told a few people and most of those people I feel like weren't the right people to tell. Right now my plans for the future are all over the place. I want to be a cinematographer but my parents probably won't let me go to LA or New York to become something "improbable". I am very awkward and introverted and not really good and making the right. I'm always scared of everything and don't know how to change. Anyway, I just really hope that you're doing well. I hope you've found your calling in life. I hope you found a companion who always makes you feel loved. I hope you made good friends who always stick by you. I hope you finally feel at peace with yourself and that you don't feel lost or alone anymore. I hope you don't still worry about your anxiety and stress. I hope you finally feel happy with your body and you feel less insecure than I do. I hope you were able to fix bad relationships from the past. I also hope you finally found yourself and don't still do what others expect of you. I hope you have stopped comparing yourself to other women. I really hope you don't still secretly cry at night when everyone's asleep. Just know that I will always be apart of you and you can always look to me whenever you feel unhappy and realize that what you're going through is nothing compared to what I'm going through. Please always remember to smile and see the world in a positive light. Love, 15 (almost 16) years old Shayli P.S. Happy 21st! Don't drink too much:)