A letter from August 22nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hello, firstly are you doing ok ? I know from today’s date 22nd August 2020 I’m starting to to better I hope that you are okay x if not go treat yourself tomorrow if your busy, find time, treat yourself you deserve it xxx This year has been a chaotic year :( do you remember it ? But before I get into all the horrifics of this year I wanna remind you about how I’m feeling now. When you receive this letter you will be 3 years I to your proper work life and I hope you are in a job which you love if not don’t give up xxx chase your dreams you didn’t work your butt off to not live your life full of happiness XD How am I feeling right now ? Nervous mostly, I start college in 2 weeks and that’s where this new big chapters of my life begins. I will meet new people make new friends and create new memories but don’t forget about your old ones xx here’s a number to remember if it’s still valid +44 7307 177805 ( Katy Bamforth ) do you still keep in contact ? If not send her a message or give her a ring this girl is supposed to be the one by your side as you walk down the isle to the love of your life <3 do you know your life long love yet ? Is he beautiful love you always imagined 😂 any way if hes here with you this next part of for him if your still single go buy yourself a tub of Ben and Jerry’s cookie dough ice cream and cry through this part “ hey you ! Yeah you the guy who things your good enough for me unless your over 6ft tall with abs and a peachy bum and I don’t want you :) jk your perfect how you are. Please don’t break my heart I have spent so long picking up the pieces these last 5 years I feel like I will be numb to the memories of how horrific everything was for me prove to me that you are my guy <3 my one and only. Do you wanna know my dream dates ? I would love to drive to the sea side and watch the sun set from the boot of a car with fairly lights and blankets everywhere or maybe going to one of them fairs you see in movies and spending money on rigged games just to win a teddy which will be completely pointless :) aha you think I’m needy, although this would be nice , just make sure you here for me I have a tendency to keep things hidden and push you away but when I do that don’t shout at me I will get mad upset and I will cry and shout and slam doors ect just please hold me tight ignore the things I say and hold me tight my hears been broken too many times it’s hard for me to trust again so please hold me just having you there and knowing you care is the greatest gift of all. If you treating me right I want you to know that I love you ( ps make sure our wedding song for walking down the isle is ‘ thousand years ‘ it’s been my dream for so long and I’m not letting my old ages brain get in the way of that. Btw don’t forget the promise ring or the engagement one nothing too flashy just a simple ring with a small cute gem on :) :) :) “ hey how back to be I wanna know some stuff about you when you recive this you should be 21 what is your job ? Are you happy? Any children ? Or any plans ? Do you live on your own now ? Did you go to uni ? What did you study ? Have you made your mum proud yet ? ( better do ) anyway future me <3 I love you stay strong and you can do this just like how I can make these first few weeks of college wish me luck ! —— I also want to remind you of what has happened in 2020 it’s easy to forget and also remember we’re not yet at the end of anything else happens I will be sure to send you and update later on in the year —— first there was Australien wild fires which ****** millions of wild life and devestated part of Australia closely followed by floods in Australia - America was making WW3 threats with Iran and we all thought that is what was going to happen - basketball player kobe and his daughter and Gianna died in a helicopter crash - Caroline flack ****** herself from social media pressure - COVID-19 came around and we all went into lockdown. Now I can get into more detail COVID 19 is called 19 because it was expected to have come around in 2019 Nannan was really ill around this time remember she may have had it. The week of the 17th of March I think was my final day of school I went to school on the Monday knowing no better at all I did maths English history science and came home, I didn’t say good bye to no one and before I knew it Boris said that schools were to close down for the foreseeable future at the end of the week and exams were to be cancelled. Unfortunately I never made it to the end of the week I fell to ill with the corona virus to go back into school for the safety of everyone so I ended up missing everything ( having corona virus was a horrible experience my throat constantly filled up with phlegm and I went through so many tissues it was unbelievable. I was completely tired 99% of the time and occasionally I would feel ok and be able to do anything I wanted to but it didn’t last long . I would hate the thought of having to get up because it was too tiring . I spent nights with my face in the fan constantly spitting all my silva out to stop myself from choking or sitting with my head over my bin trying to cough it all up ) next was the shopping shortages country wide we somehow managed to run out of toilet paper first which was absolutely bizzare closely followed by milk eggs flour and pasta this was the chaotic time sat here right now I can’t remember much more little things that happened. A lot of it was just staying at home and watching the news keeping track of cases and numbers and watching the charts rise or fall the next big significant event is the BLACK LIFES MATTER protests after the Kuder of George floyed which took place in Britain and I’m America statues were graffitied and although it was for a good cause, the lock down seemed to have turned everyone into unfeeling savages who thought it was ok to spray paint over memorials. Protests still go on today but not as much anyway let me tell you my favourite part GCSE results ( funny to say they were never sat ) the minister of education came up with this ****** algorithm which downgraded our results based on our post code but if you were from a private school they were Upgraded proper unfair that it was only a few days before that it was all sorted out and we were given our teachers predictions and of course we passed everything :) go us —— their is so much more to 2020 but it is hard to remember it all at once but please never forget it x I love you lilly you are so strong xxx ps - go out buy a dominos pizza get some chocolate some crisps and something to Drink and have an amazing night on me xx