A letter from August 21st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Look how fast you‘ve made it. God **** I am so proud of you. I know you had a really rough time but I hope the time you‘ll see this you’re happy. Did your dreams came true? Did you do anything from your wishlist? Are you married or traveling around the world? I have so many questions to you but I‘ll have to wait and see. I‘m so sad right now and I‘m crying and thought maybe I‘ll feel better if i write this letter to myself. Sometimes I forget that I might be happy in the future. I‘m always thinking "what if I‘m not?" I don’t want to live another 5 years full of pain for nothing. But I need to stay positive. I mean I have to. You have to. It will get easier! I wish i could talk to you just a few seconds. Am I happy now? I feel a pain in my chest writing this and I‘m thinkin all the time "I can’t do this anymore" but it doesn’t matter because i have to right? Here‘s the question: why am I just talking about how sad I am? I think in 5 years from now, I am happy. I hope so. I just want to let you now that I‘m proud of you that you didnt gave up on us. You had rough times but they‘re over. YOU HAVE MADE IT DARLING! I‘m ******* proud keep that smile, drink water, eat delicious food and live your best life from now. You really have to finally start living your live. I‘ll see you In love present me