A letter from August 20th, 2020

Dear Future Sam, (i sent a couple just to make sure it reaches u) Hey. I was thinking about you today. I don't know why I'm so emotional. I don't know what it's like to walk in your shoes. I've felt so insecure for a long time. I've spent such a long time wanting to be someone else. I know that you can't speak to me, but I can speak to you. And I know what you would say. ♡ You would tell me that everything is going to be okay. You'd tell me to believe in myself and that I'm ***** be awesome. Even if I'm unsteady right now, I believe that. I want to thank you for always trying again and becoming who you are today. Please know that I'm smiling when you get this. And I'm going to take all the steps I can to become you. For all I know, maybe you need encouragement. ♡♡ or maybe you're too awesome already. But just know. Even if things are really hard, or really sad. Things can also be really happy and really great. Please hang in there for the both of you. I believe in you. I wanna ask u questions even tho u can't reply. I kinda wish we could be friends, although I know we sorta are. SoooOooo. Do you have a favorite color? ;D ...Is Ash still around. I really hope he's okay and doing well. How's it going with art? You got any partners yet? You'll be an awesome boyfriend, I'm sure you will!! Oh! And have u transitioned? Do u pass? Are u good at makeup? :D I'm sure you're super cool in your own ways. I guess I'm running out of things to say. I miight send u more messages, okay? ♡♡ I know it might be frustrating since u can't message back, but in a way, I'll get answers back. I'll know your answer in 5 years. Thanks again for being you. You mean a lot to me. Even if that's weird, since you are me. I love living. And I love living as you. I'm proud of you. Never stop being awesome. I love you. You're my hero, dummy. See you later -Love, Sammy