A letter from August 17th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I just realized that you're needy. When you find some people who makes you feel comfortable and happy, you get attached so easily. And you want their attention everyday. You wanted to tell those things before entering your life but you just can't utter any words, you fail everytime there's a new person who wants to break your wall that you set up so high. You let them break it, instead of warning them. And that's the reason why at the end of the day, you're the most affected one because you're the one who really cares. You act like your cold but deep inside your hurting. And even if you didn't tell them about how needy you are, your actions are obvious and because it's obvious, they got tired of you, you needy ****! You depressed as ****! They don't want someone around them who always cling on them. They don't want someone who's needy as **** as you! Because all they care is the happy, outgoing, easy go lucky, cheerful and generous you!! They don't need the sad side and depressed side of you! They're only there for you because you're convenient, you pay for their bills, their food, their stuff, their fare and so on. They don't need the YOU! Who can't give them anything and they will never be! Keep that in mind 😉 if you really want to find happiness, look inside you not on other people, not on luxurious and fancy things you like, not on celebrities who doesn't even know you exist, not on temporary things, please. Coz if those things I mentioned will be gone, your happiness will come along, it won't stay. So please, I hope right now you found happiness within you, within your soul, within your body and within yourself 🥰 I love you girl!