A letter from August 16th, 2020

Dear Future Lj, I don't even know what to start. Ewan ko kung naaalala mo pa rin pero eto yung gabing ayaw mong mahiga sa kama dahil alam mo kung gaano karaming luha ang sasayangin mo na naman. Yes, it's the night you knew that Kyle cheated on you. But I do really hope na by the time you're reading this, you guys are both okay. Wounds have been healed, and it was all a part of history. Above all, siguro naman graduate ka na? Hahahaha aba inday dapat lang! Baka nakakalimutan mo kung gaano ka ka-ambisyosa? Duh. Hindi nga mabilang sa palad mo mga pangarap mo. Pero I hope those things are still your inspiration on why you're still pushing through. Hindi ko alam kung mas naging mahirap ba ngayon kumpara sa dati, but i'm glad you've gone this far! Wohooo! Achievement 'yon tanga, ang hirap kaya gumising araw-araw knowing na habang tina-type mo 'to qurantined pa rin ang Pinas at umaalingasaw yung baho ng gobyerno. Kidding aside, sana habang binabasa mo 'to---masaya ka. Hindi dahil sa iba, kundi para sa sarili mo. Sana hindi mo na dinedepende yung happiness mo para sa isang tao, sana nakamit mo na (FINALLY) yung self-love na years mong ini-struggle. Hindi ko alam kung umiibig o nagmamahal ka man sa mga panahon na 'to pero sana hindi pa, unless 'yan na yung soulmate nating pinagpa-pray natin gabi-gabi! If that's so, then i'm so happy for you! I am. *shredding tears na malala, as in hahaha internally lang kasi habang tinatype ko 'to na pagod na mata ko kaka-iyak* Hayyy. You've been through a looooooot, Lj. Alam kong matapang kang babae, kaya nga nababasa mo 'to ngayon eh, and i'm sure you're much stronger now! Physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I hope by the time you're reading this, you're still hopeful. You still see all the good things in this world, no matter how much the universe has been so cruel to you. You still continue to love, even more, not just for the people around you but for everyone. I hope you made your parents proud at this moment. I'm sure you do! I believe in you! I hope you know how priceless you are. You finally knew your worth and no one, ever, can take it away from you. I hope at this certain time you're reading this, **** ka na. HAHAHAHHAHA ABA OO DAPAT LANG SIS ILANG TAON MO NANG PANGARAP YAN! Di nga seryoso, sana fit and healthy ka, your all well-being. And lastly, gusto kong magpasalamat sayo dahil nalagpasahan mo lahat ng 'to. I know you don't deserve all the bad things in this world pero things happen for a reason, right? Lahat may dahilan, at lahat ng 'yon ay hindi mauuwi sa lahat, lalo na't alam mong kasama mo ang Diyos palagi. Alam ko, hindi ka perpektong tao. Oo, nagkakamali ka. Pero ang mahalaga ay natututo ka. Alam kong you take things more maturely now and i'm really really proud of you! Basta ha, continue to be a better person. 'Wag mang-aapak ng ibang tao at 'wag gagawa ng masama sa kapwa mo. Yun lang naman ang importante eh. Alam naman ng Lord kung ano ang laman ng puso mo at kung anong klase kang tao, at alam kong hanggang ngayon habang binabasa mo 'to, Siya pa rin ang sandigan at gabay mo. Mahaba na siguro 'to. Baka naabala pa kita. Hahahaha! Pero siguro last message ko na lang, send ka ulit neto para sa sarili mo after 5 years para wala lang, may thrill ganon hahahahaha de ano para may panghahawakan ka pa rin kahit papaano in the future. Di ba? I think that's all. Basta continue to aim high, okay? Mata sa langit, paa sa lupa. Malay mo in 5 years, nagwo-world tour ka na! Naks naman DJ LJ HAHHAHAHA PERO SERIOUSLY THO MAG-ISIP KA NG IBANG SCREEN NAME KASI ANG BADUY NIYAN HAHAHAHA. Yan lang!! I love you always!!! Take care of yourself ha! Wag kalimutan uminom ng vitamins at 8 glasses of water a day. Sis dapat lagi hydrated kasi sure akong clear skin ka na sa mga panahon na binabasa mo 'to! nagmamahal, labli joy. PS. Hehe, I wonder lang kung ang hopeless romantic mo pa rin ba hanggang ngayon? Ang cliche mo pa rin ba? Hmmm, girl sagot!! PPS. Last na, photographer na ba talaga mapapangasawa natin sis??? UwU