A letter from August 10th, 2020

Dear Future Hope, Hey! so this was written in 2020, when you where 12. so we have a lot of expectations for you right now. I want to become a computer programmer, i have a whiteboard with all of our plans. I want to loose some weight. I also want to start a YouTube channel in the next couple years. Just remember that even now, as broken as you may feel, you are still so strong. You are able to hold yourself up for a long period of time, even though you feel like shattering. Just promise you wont stop moving forward. Remember it doesn't have to be pretty or graceful, you just need to keep moving. Make happiness your number 1 priority, and be gentle with yourself in the process. Be enough for yourself first, the rest of the world can wait. You don't need to be perfect, or like these models you see in the magazines you read. That belly fat is good, it shows that you don't care. Those thighs you have, those show that you have self warmers. just be happy with yourself before you go with somebody else. stop asking why they keep doing it, and start asking why you keep following it. Promise me that you won't let someone treat you poorly just because you love them. stand up for yourself okay, i know its hard. Trust me I know. You don't want to be a wimp right? Okay that's what i thought. Just remember that no amount of guilt change change anything about the past, and no amount of anxiety can change anything about the future, so live in the present, it will do you good.