A letter from August 10th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, So this time i decided to write the letter for 5 years in the Future insted of 1 year. Honestly i dont think there is a way to forget 2020. Please tell me it got better? Please tell me you are still alive? Because honestly right now everything sucks! Bad! How is college? Did you drop out like i think you will? Are you still single? What is going on with your anxiety and depression? How is your family? I am actually excited to meet you but it will take some time! Well I think i should still give you at least a little bit of recap. Because who knows? Maybe you tried to erase 2020 out of your mind! So lets begin: Well actually i/you should probally start of were the last letter left of. You didnt start excersising, you didnt start watching what you eat but you actually dont mind your body too much right now but whatever. So in fall you started your first term in university and you loved it! It was amazing yoh met some amazing people and you loved your major! So the rest of 2019 was pretty great but then 2020 happend. Silvester started out okay your sister dropped you for your cousin but you spent it with the rest of your family and Florian (who you kinda had a crush on so it was really good) you than went out till 6/7 in the morning and was really drunk! So obvious 2020 started for you on january 2 because the first day didnt count. At least for you becaue on Twitter world war 3 was trending! (Already great right?) But you didnt think much of it (mistake). So the first month and also most of february wasnt to bad. Austalia Bush fires happend, kobey died, your grandma passed and a few other things. But your fasching was kind of amazing! (We were in Vorarlberg and the also in graz an you were 4 days drunk!) So your second term of college started and thats when it all went to ****. Just a week into second term a global pandemic was called out. So yeah your whole *** country went Into lockdown! 2 whole months just at home! Then there was the BLM movenent in may/june. Which honestly was amazing but still a lot! Oh ****** hornits were being found, eh ufos were being discoverd and what eles? Ohj right kim jonh jung fakes his own ***** to find a snitch in his goverment. Almost forgot that little think! As for your privat life... You are still single and thats kind of the best think in your life right now! But you did start online dating while the panademic and you love dating around. Anyway till your birthday nothing too exciting happend except that you developed almost dayli panik attacks. But on your 19 birthday everything changed. I dont actually remember whole lot (you were preeetttyy wasted). Except one small think were you may have told a 16 year old that you arent completly straight! ( Which i still dont actually know and am certain of or have tild anyond soo if you could send me a sing and help me that would be great because i am struggling for real!) Anyway you also aperantly blurted out that you hooked up with beni (yikes!) (Even thought everyone already kinda knew). Than nothing much happend after wards except you falling second term extreamly! Having to leave your job because of your anxiety! Starting therapy oh and trying to take your life while also trying to break your hand (which was only semi sucsesfull because you only hurt it really really bad) so yeah nothing big! No really it wasnt your best Performance till now! Right now i am at my uncles with my sister in Vorarlberg. Your hand hurt still preety bad but you are a little bit better emotionaly. The panademic is still very much so going on and you kinda expect a second wave to hit us soon. And a second lockdown. I just hope everything gets better the next 5 years becuase i dont know if i can make it else. I hope that when xou look back i am just a disapinting time of your life and not your avarage self. I hope i get better. I could really use your help thought but i know i have to start doing it alone In regards Me/you