A letter from August 6th, 2020

Dear me (Bart). PLEASE PARDON ANY SPELLING MISTAKE OR ANY CONFOLUTED SENTENCE STRUCTURE. Thanks <3. (Or in the case of my *****, Dear sister, Please know that i am with you with every step that you take, when you need me, just wisper my name, and i will be there). Okey then overdramatic intro (and some other parts) over, Lets get on with the show! Today is my birthday, 6th of august 2020, The year of the Corona pandemic and whatever this year might bring us. Today i've had a blast celebrating my birthday with my sister, We played lazer-tag together, While exausting and hot we had a good laugh, We also riden some karts together, just the two of us, That was the highlight of the day, (You won by a hair dear sister "0.03 SECONDS !!!" lucky **** :P) But i had payback with Airhockey, i beat yo *** :D, So i guess we're even now. Later in the evening we went back to your place to have some chinese with your fiancé (Shannon) (PS: i hope you are still together, tho i sometimes feel you can do better. It is just that your search for beloning and love sometimes leads you to "rash" desisions, But dont see this as blame, i too am looking for belonging and love, and my form of coping might be worst than yours, i choose to drown myself in beer and tabacco (if it turns out this is the last message you recieve. i would like to apologize for not taking better care of myself. But know this, You were the highlight of my life <3, You'll always be with me, and i will watch over you untill your last breath, So PLEASE, Enjoy life. And dont you dare commit suicide over grief, i will haunt you if u do that :P. okok, this is getting long winded and sappy, so lets get on with it shall we?)). Right, where was i... Okok lets get on with "hopes and dreams" (More like missery and nightmares, Am i right ?! XDXD, just kidding, im just a cynical **** :P). Well, what do i Hope to achieve in the coming years...? (I will put this in list-form cus im too lazy to make it a "Fancy story") * I would like to have quit smoking (obviously i am over-smoking TOO MUCH, and this will take a toll some day). * I would like to have a stable life (in general) ( My life as it is right now is rather... "Inresponsable" to put it lightly, but i would like to life a (Healthy and happy) life, where i have someone to love and where i have someone who i can take care of. *I would like to become a father one day. I feel like i would make a good one... * I would like to... well... I think besides quiting smoking and getting my life back in the rails and finding a partner and becoming a father... I think that is all i want out of live, I dont need riches, I dont need fancy stuff... I think just plain old fatherhood and a stable/happy life will suit me just fine. Dear (Me) / !Sister!. I hope you are doing well, I hope you get your life together. I hope you are loved, and that you are happy, And if you are not loved or happy, then go at it!, Change your way, Let life guide you to new pastures! YOU ONLY LOSE WHEN YOU STOP GETTING UP!. Now GET UP! straighten your back and move forward! THATS AN ORDER!. You have no right to give up, You have no right not to be loved, YOU HAVE NO RIGHT NOT TO BE HAPPY!!. Sinserely yours, B. <3<3<3 VLEK, Bart. PS: DONT FORGET WHO YOU ARE!!!