A letter from August 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, So today Allah SWT taught me/you/us a big big lesson! I hope you remember, I’m sad and hurt inside but what happened was for the best! Waste of sixty pounds (in 3 instalments if that helps you remember) in leeds, but it’s over. I’m not actually sad/ hurt, I’m just disappointed at what happened (and I have to say a little relieved) but at the same time, my belief and faith in allah has never been stronger! He stopped it from getting worse, or from me committing a big mistake! Unfortunately I had to learn it the hard way but I still believe he did what was best for me. Idk why I can’t have ‘normal’ things, without sounding obtuse I feel like I’m destined for something greater... i don’t know if you remember or not, but mum told you this story once about a dream she had when u/I was a kid! So the dream; When I was a kid and had taken a beating from dad, she cried on her prayer mat and made a dua to allah to look after me, saying she wasn’t going to be around for ever and she wanted Allah to look after me. She said she was weak and couldn’t protect me- That night in her dream she saw the prophet Muhammed (SAW) and he put his hand on my head and said to mum ‘don’t worry about this one’ So I feel like I am Blessed or destined for something great idk. Atm tho I can’t have Anything ‘normal’ rn... idk. I’m single and lonely! Let’s see what tomorrow brings, I just hope I can forget what happened today pretty soon and this will just be a crappy reminder I can laugh at! Anyways, adios amigo!!! I gotta be at work in Currys birstall tomorrow, I’m working for free! I owe Dyson 3 hours so I’m doing lunch cover