A letter from August 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, im sorry that i might be failing you again, that im wasnt what you expected when you were 10 or 17. im sorry you had to go through this, im sorry you had to go through hard time and be strong at the same time for your sisters. im sorry i couldnt do better, im sorry i was such a weak person that just messed up everything i hope when you receive it, you are better and more content with your life and you reach your goals. i hope you are still alive to read this again, your almost 25 years old ( just few days to 25) who cried her eyes out bcs she might get dropped out i hope she made it i hope you are more gentle with yourself, closer to God, and figured what you want in this life. 2020 was pain in the ***, but i hope it made you stronger. i wish happiness for you. i wish more self love for you. I believe you would be more mature and somehow i wish i could be hugged by you and told what to do as im lost atm. missing aunt so bad right now. i wish i could hug her as well. **** my eyes hurt for crying for hours now but i hope you wouldnt cry this much anymore, let alone when aunt left. dear futureme, 5 years for now, i hope you are way closer to your goals. i hope you made it. i love you. i really love you. im sorry no one actually had said how bright and potential you are. no one actually said to your face that they believe in you but i do. i do believe in you. i love you. this too, shall pass. happy birthday. love, your 24 year old who will get 25 in 16 days.