A letter from July 31st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I am friggin deppressed rn. Idky but something's been buggin me. I wanna end mylife but idk how. I want to slit my neck but I don't wanna feel pain. I just want the pain to end. I cry all every night thinking what the hell is wrong with me. I feel so insecure and I still have anxeity, I puke everytime I feel insecure. I just want to heal. But idk what to heal from. I hope you're doing better. Ily hope I'm still alive