A letter from July 30th, 2020

Time Travelled — almost 3 years

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

My esnidoic necadhg efli u'lyol ad atth mdsuae ot eon aobtu nertgeyvhi be laeylr sietln ot rstoise lla da. Swie item klycu em udaorn hrigt adn enbe desnirf i lcpae osoehmw dan igrht ehav wsa eyrv eth in i ingamaz ehva eopelp i. Asw eotrh to it itnaklg a kalaimva eahc nad lewho tho pepsdto i gnhit. Oyu itgnsay ltils i eilk am dsia seog rntgso on lfei. Anenchi ueasc dasy am from ndaruo eryv ni flrgiea i be dan pdreio i dsay tnrgwii a gp of you ot dsippek wto shpiertinn. Dan wntas od hsit sret em dgo lthocceoa ot si hwat ate ktea. Ihm a syera i atsl ish hda oh uoy khrssewi wdon chu,m elvod tow ot os rfo cta. Fsdin i i sltil eoph mhi m,hcu os me eh aaign smis. Fo tbe ayw it cumh eorhtm sisert oldnw'tu akcb dan ti het elki yerhrc actf onw ashte os evol ew sthi sbmia emorth twhi eewr ubt aer edeahpnp liamyf i agnai iytagsn hnte reh ehtm so lal ufn da sedi th?itg we on so heert adn fsta. Suaec sogd hstat we esikl ecyhrr hbrtore misab adn mte hwo. Assepd saibm gao ntsmho nbee sn'aht wto yaaw egtra. Teme cuiqk is eh fnu bayb, wne he teraf og os adn rpteyt eh earl ihm ym a eodrteap 'lhel lalc ltyhglsi shit pup unrjied uocneb si ihm uhtins ho ogt nrsehnptii thres'e udtpsi bkac os i nnaog mi'. I,lfe sugse astrh, see ad erhwe ear e'stehr i o,ersflyu nme no yuo vlie era ofr ubt eavh sgoe, yhtvienerg krow ot,u eifl i rfo douran veah pusdti kaaeaywt lyno ouy eht isht seod lla inpoxteec mrof emnow to nme ilek eht ielk. Hitsrtpae ot nnompasoc,i im heva uyg rthie ym inrdef be reinsdf lmea mfa okya artge rewasn watn sg?selas leki eherit **** you rea ng ro si so i iwth ruyo all emnwo who ensoutiq sebt nno ot. Do are ahev dan owh i *** rifdnes mrnlao aelm. Ryuo kowr ookl lil' so and secrda owh nad wkno ti ese n,htmo tnsur ta oals 'ill tretuinrmce netx eurs nagai rfo 'tlil relett ot im hertes' tuo, tceiedx tou. Flhyeulpo kloo rgrela ta i teh eavh yitlnatsn pu nto uceitrp dna rcaeg het igev ot. Ogns a brypablo d1 0202 to da no v i on nr tnrecco ni ofr lwil hwo by is ris nsgo fma ltdanaaehk ictekt i i ew nneiour ram ad yub but mrrb noectrc siht ohtt tno vaeh dwuol unf a og ym nda nad tuuelg vifotare idd. D'edo hsi the fof ilam ujst tmeh cbyoanl ypnea rea erhet leoth 4 now :(( of adn ided. Korbe hda ilek uatrdheg elik taht lareyl iggi se'h aols uyo s?syte?l pseke ipck at yuo veren eranysucesn w a ami fari yrou hawt da(h eashd ahtts fterha sreu)ggtl now tbu nirwgtoh ?ith??s znya a a anm, whcih os sesrnao i idlke si yrahr off. A nwe eadsreel e**-*r lal ihtw tsico oevl cytrenel tilsl lbmau anllccisayoo adn seh' ystesl msuic issk his da yrhra aehpcr nkig ,tiem cdios ermo i re,acre tengot. A rsibah nuf i heav eiavahd enbe kniigss olt. Iegsgtb i ugh wnta sllti otn od od hsete grnugiif otu do i foiec,fs wokr sthgin not mi sspuurti enht irnotcma aasetlt my ilke in nad sroiewr i ad hwy ym teh mentom ot obj era ta. Mne tno ot **** vihadae eavllbnauia at wnko wtha do atrp tuoab illst mi rhwot it sti i yrnigc dan em uyo uoy tno rhgti tbu of noilogk crasve nedigpnor. Hcsu hte all on eitm life si steg iefn, evrsne si ehrmto ym but. Bye kay. I fun avhe nda lhals ylk.

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