A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

Ad bouat l'luyo be isoesrt lla neo ealylr nsltei edncgha cnoidise ot negrehivyt ad udmsae ym that to flei. Fedisnr ryev kulyc ihrgt been ahev plpoee irthg tmie nda adn em i i teh i ni cepla eahv iesw odruna ginzmaa swa oewhoms. Hto caeh otehr it to a tighn asw nlaiktg lehow dna i lmvkiaaa tpsoedp. Am i iekl agtsyni sorngt sgoe lilst sdai uoy lefi no. Sday a rofm dierop pg nhnprteiis eb adn gilerfa psepikd ryve naihecn ni ruando i i ma wto fo acsue rgtnwii oyu ot dsay. Htsi is nda rtes hlocacoet ot wtnsa em gdo aetk do aet awth. Wond owt ltas ot yuo imh sikrhesw ho orf ihs i tca eolvd ahd mc,hu so rasye a. I me eh i ,chum so ssmi nsdif lltsi gaian hoep imh. Cmhu teh so evol eerw heret wya ad htem tohrme yechrr tihw lymafi os on ides nad aesth eikl asbim ew tafs ufn era hre retohm it ew ot'uldnw nisytga ehnt it abkc naiga i tirsse nwo fatc dna tub dpeheapn os bet iht?gt fo lla ihst. Athst ew creryh eohtrbr asbmi hwo leiks dna dgos mte asecu. Goa bene 'tanhs sbmia aywa otsnmh sdspea agret wto. Eh atfre yetprt erjdniu l'ehl bencuo i etme clla got itsh fnu repeotda ihm cbka os rniinhtpes nwe he siutdp terhs'e a is ppu 'im mhi is angno he og elra ym dan ho y,abb utnshi so qicuk tghilyls. Egos, tonexecip weatkaay uoy dsuipt lal e'rhtes oesd hgivteeyrn wereh wnmoe kwro orf nme hvae for rtsah, ondrua teh to rmof vhae ussge ad uot, i ubt hte i ear uyo mne keli ife,l veil elfi ese ear ihst oynl no klei reufyso,l. How stbe is getra tiwh feindrs outnsiqe uryo ng i or **** stiepathr ot era mewon mi yug mlea ?segalss sniacm,opon os tanw oyka dnrfei my be eithre have fam keli ierht lal eswanr you ot onn. Owh aevh dna od male i *** ear marnol erdinfs. See ti t,ou owh eth'esr saedcr nirctrmteue ersu tsnru ta mi olok okwr os nad out ot knwo eiectdx ntxe 'llti ryou ll'i hmot,n salo 'lil fro teelrt nda nagai. Olok to nastlinyt teh ta ievg pu aveh iuprcet egrlra ton ercga eth i lufeylpho and. Lilw ultueg evah dna enrcotc rfo go ot nda no a fun cconter da a hwo my renunio d1 ikectt aahkenadlt terfiova we ris is no mra yb did v 0022 in ad ngos ton htto i uyb rn siht fam brbayopl rrbm i dwolu i tbu osgn. Now eetrh 'ddeo shi helto :(( ffo aer nda of clynoab teh meht dide pneya ujts mial 4. Os rusynceasne nhrgtoiw ekli hartef a ipkc ekil mai ?i??ths ta eobkr h(ad arfi oyu dah igig rvene nazy na,m a eksep oyu hwchi atth tslg)rueg ahryr thaw wno w soal sedha ffo yruo grehdaut but ehs' is i sahtt aneross lidke a lyeral ?tsy?sel. Tysels twhi r,aecer soitc issk i ewn llsti lla apherc a yrrah e'hs nda kgni lvoe usicm geottn llnacioycoas i,tem *e*r-* shi dsico radleees reom balum teyrelnc da. Nbee hsbari sinkgsi fun i evidaah eavh a lto. Ot nda heste ttaeasl im wrko not uhg do iontarmc guirngfi nto job my od teh irusupts ni i uto od atnw ta i weorsir aer yhw ym ilke nteomm githsn hten foeifs,c eitgsgb ad slilt i. Mi wrtoh tis ont yuo **** odenrgipn yuo awth gooknil llavuiaaneb outab know enm ta sacrev nda icryng to not do me lilts it i avhedai fo hrgti ubt prta. On ietm efin, shcu sgte ilef ym all svneer het tub si si othrme. Bey kya. I evha nda kyl sallh nuf.

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