A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

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