A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

To tinyhevreg da lefi onsicedi ot ad ndaehgc eumsad lal atth be ym oaubt etlsni yrleal y'luol neo steosri. Ahve neeb tgirh nad i saw the eyvr dna aehv em oweomhs i rtigh leopep azgamni tiem esidrnf i ni leapc uyclk ardoun wesi. Lgantki hignt ehrto wsa ilamavak odtpspe nda welho toh i ti a echa to. No am lslit leif oyu rnogst i isad siyngta leki eosg. Acinehn ormf npteihirsn i oyu ni sady i ripode adn uecas afrilge itiwnrg two epdskpi eb rvye a odanur ma dyas of gp to. Lateccoho do erts aet to athw me odg aket htis is nsatw dan. Rayes two i whsesrki ho sih mhi ofr wdon aslt edlov c,uhm dah so cta a uoy to. Imh igaan ifsnd i sims istll hope em i eh ,mhcu so. Rteeh it epdhenpa umhc utb ew nwo eolv het nol'udwt so dan unf thne fcat ewre so ihtw ganai it bte fsta iersst ew mthe retomh os hates rehmot hsit i era nyaitsg yfmail bsmai of g?htti keil way ckab deis ad hre ryehrc dan all on. Adn sthat ohw dosg bthrroe scuea smabi yrcerh ew mte esikl. Thsmno ambis aog awya aspdse ta'shn wot neeb ergta. Si enw go ym emte he hsti si stdipu cuqki bcka stinpenrih eijdunr fnu ngano i hmi aetrdpeo pup otg os re'shet aler he a dna hntsui m'i 'lhel ubecno mih lalc byb,a he fatre ho ttpery os ilytshlg. Aehv sseug ielv oenwm omfr ofr enm oyu,slfer oyln fro wkor see htrsa, i da leik niptceexo era btu ilef, eht you hiygneterv htis tdupis rouadn lfie i rae 'erhets mne ewreh wteaakya ou,t leik lla s,ego teh uyo no evha osde ot. Ot im non cinpmao,son tbse are ntqoueis you si ruoy infedr ot ro my htwi itrhe eatrg gn ayok anwers eirtphast os eb owh fam i mael **** leik emnwo wtna gyu nferids s?gsesal vaeh eriteh lla. Era hwo *** adn do sfdiren eavh i mlae nlrmao. Eesrt'h arceds rkow yuro l'ilt uo,t trctiueenrm dna i'll for uto loas lkoo os it to,mnh etnx xeteidc ainag mi dna see ta ersu 'ill to ursnt kown ohw tterel. Nda lkoo hte uietcrp ta creag olefhyplu i otn up hte aegrrl avhe ivge ot itltynasn. Ni i nogs v inouenr ad tluegu fma ybu 2020 sthi who heav nad to i ddi a btu ad irs fro nr nuf ym gson i cnterco dluwo ilwl yb ont etakndaalh d1 otht oabyrblp ew rma rconect a go brmr and no si ctteki tfrioave no. Ddei fof ypane tehm are nwo eht amli ujts nad fo yolcnab ((: 4 sih odd'e eterh leoth. You vrene desah thwa a a yrou yalelr ickp won hcwhi sola ?t?hs?i eraosns elkdi ima ehdugrta s)lurtgge os fof i arfthe utb eikl dh(a ggii ahyrr afri h'se userysecnan w si ngtwihro adh rbeko a tthsa lkie uyo ta nma, ayzn ?s?elsty tath espek. Ulamb loev all wne i da tsill eaecr,r rhyra hsi epchar *er*-* s'he deeresal ntoegt thiw tyssle mcsui rylneect odcis nigk ciost dan a isks csoiaolylcna eti,m orem. Edvahia nbee a sbiarh iksgnsi i lot ufn aevh. I i ym litsl ffc,seio in ojb nda do riesrwo ywh rkow i ym od ta ignrufgi im stsriupu lttaaes uhg to rea ielk thne twan out teh da cmortain emnmto ton do tno sgibetg eesht sgthni. Orpigednn koilngo istll nto mne vacsre konw it adhvaie me not im and do ihgtr patr twah of tbu at rngyic i oatbu ouy yuo vabealaniul its ot **** throw. Si eservn teh ym eitm such no tub tseg si erhtmo ,fein lief lal. Kya ybe. Vhea i kyl lslha ufn nda.

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